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hmm i figured i shall blog about striping now if not i'll never get down to it.

well i shall just describe yesterday first. the whole day i didnt feel anything. nothing at all, even when i was writing all my farewell notes and stuff. even when i said 'guides fall in' for the last time and everything. until the striping ceremony.

when names were called out, people were striped, i still didnt feel like crying. until i striped becky. THIRD COY DO YOU KNOW HOW PROUD I AM OF YOU. WE PRODUCED TWO CLS YOU KNOW. TWO! AND MY ENTIRE COH CAME OUT IN THE EXACT WAY I WANTED. SO I'M THANKFUL FOR THAT. third coy thank you for being such wonderful capable people (:

and then as i was striping becky. i remembered everything that cherie told me last year. then i started tearing as i was telling her everything. and next to me i could hear isabelle crying really badly.

and then after they went back isa fell out of the horseshoe. and as i hugged her and she cried i cried even more. because i could really sense how much she didnt want to leave third coy. but isa as i told you. you don't know how proud i am of you!

and then everyone else got striped and they got rid of aqms and asecs and i was so annoyed you know! DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MORE OF MY BELOVED SEC TWOS COULD HAVE GOTTEN POSTS. hmphh.

and i didn't cry as much as i thought i would. i cried for a lot of reasons though. because i am leaving, because isa cry until so can3. and the last one which made me cry the most. because wo bu gan xin. as i screamed and screamed it into giraffe's shoulder in the canteen yesterday. THANK YOU DARLING. <3><.

and then presents haha i had a humongous haul and i'll give shoutouts later! and then performances <3!

sec ones THANK YOU FOR YOUR DANCE YOU ALL LOOKED REALLY CUTE.

sec twos THANK YOU FOR BONDING. <3 THAT WAS THE BIGGEST PRESENT YOU COULD HAVE GIVEN ME but continue to bond even more! AND THANK YOU FOR THE PRETTY MIRROR <3!

sec threes. OMG i felt like michelle and i were getting married. i think this will be the most memorable goh i walk through! and thank you so much darlings. for everyone else's info the sec threes made goh for us to march through, and at the end of it was a FIVE KG HUMONGOUS YUMMY CHOCOLATE CAKE thank you THOMAS <3

sec fours. YAYY we fulfilled out dream of harmonising I LOVE YOU BATCH 06. THE SHOUTOUT'S BELOW!

and haha i will blog about dinner another time la!




i never thought it would come so soon. i remember how we started counting down from eleven months ago. that was when we dreaded guides. HATED guides even. and then at seven months ago we stopped. we really faced lots of problems and i would have not been able to stand it if not for MICHELLE YIWEN MEL AND JO AND BATCH 06.

and it seemed like only not too long ago when we stepped up. and i cried at last year's striping when her name was announced and i knew i was stuck with her for one year. when hannah was leaving and i didnt want her to. when i had to leave swallow and i didn't want to. and it never occured to me that our time would come so soon.

and when we stepped up we knew the journey would be tough. but i never knew just how tough it would be. from planning schedules which was the bane of our existence, to bothering about each batches' progress, to settling all sorts of minor stuff, to thinking how to make guides more interesting, to finding ways to make our guides more disciplined and everything. we knew it wouldnt be easy. we knew it would be hard because everyone never thought highly of our batch.

and now as michelle has said. when people say stuff about guides and everything i get very affected. my day brightens up when i hear someone say she loves guides, or that guides has become better this year, and likewise i would feel sad if someone said she hated guides. but i learnt that we can never please everyone, and as jo told me, if everyone is happy, you're doing something wrong. because liang yao ku kou.

ohno this post is super fragmented. i'm sorry!

and there were MANY MANY MANY times that i felt like giving up. when i couldnt stand it anymore. but thank you to everyone who walked this road with me.

and thank you to everyone for all your letters and presents! the letters really mean so much. i don't know whether you all are saying that like as normal things you say every striping, like 'the year's been great' and stuff like that, but IT REALLY MEANS A LOT. so thank you, even if you tell the CLs that every year. and i was reading all the notes and michelle's <3 was the only one that made me tear.

MICHELLE TAN HUITENG. you know darling, I REALLY LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. after you've read my letter to you, you'll know it. one <3 for everyday that we've been CLs. all there for you. and yupp we're hardly similar at all. but i think the only right thing they did was to put us together. BECAUSE HOW OFTEN CAN TWO PEOPLE SURVIVE THE YEAR DOING THE JOB OF THREE PEOPLE! and thank you for walking this whole road with me. through laughter, through tears, through joys, through everything. and i remember how from the moment we called yiwen last year, when we cried until two am in your house. just the two of us feeling very fed up with everything. at the chalet where i thanked god when you came and just hugged you. where we sat at the staircase crying until 6 am in the morning and being glad that we had each other. when we had the big big big big problem which seemed the world then. when they made all the empty promises to give us hope only to shatter it so soon. when i would call you/yiwen in the middle of the night and cry and scream and shout on the phone for hours. i think this whole episode has made me a much stronger person. i hated her. and yes i still do. but thank you MICHELLE TAN THANK YOU TEH YIWEN for helping me pull through this one year <3!and i think i will never forget the day after camp when we yelled at each other in your car and ended up in tears. because that showed me how different we really are. and thank god it never happened again. i'm going to miss saying 'we' and have it mean me and you. as the whole entry above means. i'm going to miss all the phone calls with you. it's going to feel very uneasy without calling you almost everyday. i'm going to miss the so many sleepovers i had at your house! I WOULD NEVER HAVE WANTED TO BE A CL WITH ANYONE BUT YOU. and thank you for standing by me! through the TEARS especially. ohmygod i think you've probably seen me cry more than anyone else in my entire life. at the chalet, on the phone with yiwen, at the toilet outside fareast and all because of her. and shit i'm tearing as i'm typing this. BUT I LOVE YOU DARLING. because we know that we've done our best and been the best CLs we could. I WILL REALLY MISS EVERYTHING I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY AHHH SHIT MICHELLE TAN I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU. THANK YOU FOR BEING A CL WITH ME. THANK YOU FOR MAKING UP FOR ALL MY WEAKNESSES. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO NICE AND HUMOURING ME WHEN I'M SAD. and we KNOW we've been the best CLs ever hoho! like how i know you never tag on people's blogs but you make the effort to come and say 'i love you' once in a while. and basically for being you. the most wonderful CL partner i could ever ask her. seriously la we've gone through so much it's impossible to believe. and i'll really treasure the year of memories. I LOVE YOU and hahaa THANK YOU FOR YOUR FIRST KISS! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!

TEHYIWEN. YIWEENNNNNN! i really don't know what i would have done without you. you know i never saw myself being so close to you. i don't know what made me call you that day last year at michelle's house. but i knew you would help. because you are TEHYIWEN. and then that sparked off the entire year's happenings. with marche's after that. and the phone calls i made to you about three times every week. thank you for reminding me of the one thing that i needed to be reminded of most. I PROMISE TO DO MY BEST. because you are such a wise person. even though i hated what you said i knew it was true. so you knew right from the start that we could never get rid of her. so you knew that i would have to go through this year with the disgusting her. so you knew. but you were different from the other YAs. because YOU CARED. or at least you were the only ones other than mel and jo who showed it to me. because when i talked to you i truly felt as if YOU CARED about whether michelle and i would really be able to survive this year. whether we would get nervous breakdowns and collapsed. whether we would be able to take rgguides to greater heights without letting the problem affect us. and truly you've taught me a lot. everytime i cry i could always call you. i'm sorry i busted your phone bill a lot. but your words mean the most to me. that's why i call you so much. because i trust you. i placed my trust in you instead of any of the other YAs because you are you. because you help us. maybe not by solving the problem, but by opening my eyes and showing me why things happen. for telling me not to cry, because it's not worth it. for being able to make me stop crying and always think of rgguides as priority. you know it was largely because of you that i didn't give up throughout the entire year. BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME NEVER TO. because you believed in me. BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME I HAD INDEED DONE MY BEST. and THANK YOU for teaching me so much. this paragraph is really an understatement. THANK YOU MISS TEH. <3 because you incorporated love into your teaching me the many things you have. especially THE MOST HATED DA JU WEI ZONG which was unfortunately so true.

MEL AND JO for being the YAs the others never were and for helping out so so much! and for helping us WITH TENDER LOVING CARE AND CONCERN (: even though you all never had to because you are not YAs officially anymore. YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH OUR BATCH LOVES THE TWO OF YOU. we wouldnt know what to do without the two of you! helping us with schedules, sessions, pga and everything and AA especially! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU (:

BATCH 06. really what can i say. we had such a tough time. because no one believed in us. but we showed so much resillience and WE SUCCEEDED. and as we read in our letter to you. our success as a batch is not measured by the execution of any of our events, but by the very fact that we TRIED OUR BEST. and scattered stardusts do get blown together again and shine like the brightest star ever in the night. i'm so thankful we were in time. and we bonded (: like A LOT. and we were the pioneers of many things. and thank you everyone for your support. michelle and i would have died without you. thank you for all of you helping to do the 3rd CL's work (: and for helping us prove to everyone that we are not failures. we proved it to the guiders YAs and everyone in our own way. and to mr. rain who liked to come and disturb us a lot that we could still pull everything off. I LOVE YOU BATCH 06.

GIRAFFE <3 LOVER. rural hike and camp. the two major major events that i did with you. you know with you our combi would have been perfect. but stupid people didn't see. but it's okay. I LOVE YOU DARLING. you are one of the most capable and dedicated people i have met. and thank you for helping out whenever you could. and for listening to me. and for letting me scream into your shoulder yesterday. I LOVE YOU LOVER.

CHERYLW haha i have a lot of memories with you! FROM SAN GEN CAO to the recent addition of the silly yi ke shu! and kboxing and everything! and ri02 when we were in sec two1 CHOCOLATE COATED APPLES <3 and chickies and everything. I LOVE YOU. and haha dinner was fun ! WE MUST CONTINUE TO GO KBOX A LOT (:

ATHENA. ZHIYANG <3 you know i never thought we would become so close! but through this year i've gotten to know you a lot better and i'm thankful for that too I LOVE YOU DARLING. THANK YOU FOR HELPING TO MAKE OUR BATCH A PIONEER OF LOTS OF STUFF!

COH 07. good luck darlings you can do it! especially my sec twos okay! don't disappoint michelle and i!

DOVE LOVEY DOVEY DOVE. i'm sorry that throughout the year i didn't get to spend as much time as i would like to have with you (: but thank you for all the loving (: DOVE DOVE FEEL THE LOVE. DO ME PROUD BECKY AND VINNA and lynnette welcome to dove (: I'M GOING TO MISSS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU (: yijun becky vinna glenys ashley gayle jiemin yuhan! <3 and now with lynnette <3!

FILZAH YILIN AIDA omg thank you for the bag i'm damn touched la! TAKE CARE OKAY. yilin you are a secretary because we believe you can do it. everything happens for a reason. and the workload will be terrible, but when you can't take it ALWAYS REMEMBER YIJUN IS HERE FOR YOU OKAY DARLING. just drop me a tag or sms/ call me! and FILZAH keep the guides room pretty okay! I ALWAYS KNEW YOU'D MAKE A GOOD QM :D

ONGLINGMIN you know when i opened the box i went omg. and as i took out the letter and saw what was underneath i went omg again. THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH <3 and now hopefully you'll enjoy guides more now that she's gone! I'LL MISS YOU LOADS too but i'll always come and visit you okay! thank you for all the chocolates and candy haha you gave me more than everyone else put together! I LOVE YOU.

SEC THREES do us proud. take rgguides010203 to greater heights. we believe that you can do it okay you have a VERY STRONG COH. (: treasure your last year in guides. time passes faster than you know it for time stops for none of us okay!

SEC TWOS my beloved! you know i think throughout my term i think I LOVE YOU ALL THE MOST. because if i wasn't a CL i wouldnt have gotten to know a lot of you better! and i wouldnt have seen all of you grow and mature into such wonderful guides now. and never forget michelle and my dream for you all. CONTINUE TO SHINE OKAY DARLINGS we'll come back to visit you all <3! JIAYOU SEC TWOS <3!

SEC ONES. haha i think you all are like super la! i'm sure you all will turn out even better than the sec threes, who fyi, were really good too! because when i saw you all hold hands during the farewell concert i was so proud of you all. SO CONTINUE TO STAY TOGETHER AND BONDED AS A BATCH YOU ALL HAVE THREE YEARS MORE TO GO!

RGGUIDES YOU HAVE PERVADED AND CONSUMED MY LIFE SO MUCH I'LL MISS YOU A LOT A LOT. and i was thinking how if i joined this this this CCA, i would be like that that that now. but deep down in my heart i never regretted joining guides because i got to know so many people! it's really really much much more than just a CCA <3

and i know i missed shoutouts to a lot of people so if you want one just request for it on the tagboard la. i'm quite tired now. i've spent almost one hour typing this post and tearing has made my eyes even more tired.

I'LL MISS YOU EVERYONE.